Neil Gaiman
Alexander Pope
Thursday, May 19, 2005
Say it's true, there's nothing like me and you,
I'm not alone, tell me you feel it too,
And I would runaway,
I would runaway, yeah, yeah,
I would runaway,
I would runaway with you,
Cause I have fallen in love,
With you, no never have,
I'm never gonna stop fallin' in love, with you,
Close the door, lay down upon the floor,
And by candlelight, candlelight make love to me through the night,
through the night, through the night,
'Cause I have runaway,
I have runaway, yeah, yeah,
I have runaway, runaway,
I have runaway with you,
'Cause I have fallen in love, fallen in love,
With you, no never oh, oh,
I'm never gonna stop fallin' in love, with you, With you,
And I would runaway,
I would runaway, yeah, yeah,
I would runaway, runaway,
I would runaway hey with you,
Cause I have, have fallen in love, fallen in love,
With you, no never oh, oh,
I'm never gonna stop fallin' in love, with you,
Fallen in love fallen in love
With you, no never have
I'm never gonna stop fallin' in love, with you
With you, my love,
With you, with you, with you, with you
"I have a problem. I'm seriously thinkin about running away with this guy. I'm so confused. :("
that message was sent at exactly 4:15 pm of may 18, 2005. i didn't realize the gravity of that message. i sent it to 3 close friends and a person i had just been introduced to a few weeks ago. i'm not exactly sure what my intentions were in sending that message. i guess i just wanted to know what their reactions would be.
the first person to reply was my 6th grade buddy. her first reply was "cno?bkt naman!?hello!ano ba ung rison!!?pag ginagago mo lang ako papatayn kita". i replied saying "I don't know.. i just need to escape fr d real world and he seems like a nice guy. I gues wat i'm trying 2 say is i'd rather b anywher but home right now.. " she replied several times. i guess she was really trying hard to convince me not to go through with it. i love her so much because when i text her stuff like that, she always smacks some sense into me and she's always there when i need counseling. she told me not to runaway cause i'll just end up hurting my parents and regretting everything.
the second person who replied was my grade 7 and second year classmate. at first, i think she didn't believe me since she said "i'm sorRy??what did u do to my lesbian budDy?". i tried to assure her that i really needed her help but i think she was still thinking twice if it was for real or not cause she said "exqueeze me?! karen tividad only runs AWAY from guys not with them silly!". putting my frustrated script writing skills to bad use, i finally said "I don't know if its d summer heat, my sudden addiction 2 telenovelas or my non existent social life but i'm finding myself in this situation. Wat do u do if u feel more secure in d company of strangers to a pt where ur willing to run away & let go of ur so-so life?" she replies "hmm.. pe0ple in the m0vies just snap bAck to reality before they jump off a c0mputer generated clifF!give it a try.. but when people run away they usually end up either at h0me or in a crack house.. im starting to worRy bout you. . .". she's the hardest person to reply to because she really makes you think and she asks deep questions. i thought of what to reply for a long time. my next reply was "People in the movies r jst actin the part but its different if ur livin the role. There r no take 2s, no rewritin of endings. U hve to make do with the cards ur delt with. Wat wud u do if ur lyf unfolds b4 u and reveals itself as a tragedy?" she took a while to reply but her reply was worth the wait. she said "in reality? I can't run away. n0 resources. . but id go as far as possible til i figure my tragic, crapPy life out. . but thats just ME. the thngs we fear the most have already hapPnd to us. . dsnt really matter WHERE we go. what matters is where we end up eventually. . ". its amazing actually... she says all the right things. i could've just ended it there and already told her the truth but, i didn't. i said "Wat matters to me is who i end up with eventually.. I don't know what to do.. Hope u guys were just here to make me better :(". at this point, i was already feeling kind of guilty. she's the best. she told me everything i really needed to hear. she remained as nice, sweet and calm the whole time.
the third person never really believe it i think. even after i tried to guarantee her that it was in fact for real.
the fourth person's reply had the biggest impact. i didn't really expect him to care much since, we weren't really that tight and we didn't really know each other that much. his reply was hours delayed and since he knew that i was very playful, he asked several times if i was just kidding him. he said "PSSST!HOY KULIT N GUMAGANDA! U THE 1 WHO TXTD ME KANINA, UMAMIN KA?:)". i decided not to reply anymore but again he texted saying "OKAY, THE THNG IS. S THS KAREN?I DO GET UR PT. DUDE, STILL NOT SURE F UR PULLIN MY LEG. WALA K YTA MAGAWA EH?". since i wasn't in the mood anymore i just plainly said "Forget it.. Nevermind. Just don't tell my sister". i was already feeling really really guilty cause he wouldn't stop texting and i know that for him, having load is a very valuable thing. he replied again saying "UY SORY. HOW WUD I KNW F M REALY TALKNG 2 U. EH ANG KULIT NYO MGKAPATID." i really didn't want to reply anymore but the person sent several more messages including one that said "F I FOUND OUT U GUYS JST PULLIN MY LEG, HASSLE SOBRA. SO, OK SERIOUS ABT KANINA?". i was gonna tell him the truth already but, i couldn't do it. my final reply was "It's not a sick joke. Why do you keep on asking? I'm sorry i got u involved. I just thought u were the 1 person who could give me sound advice. I'll just work this out on my own. Thanks anyway and sorry again."
11:54 pm, i texted all except 1 the same message which was "I'm sorry. My calendar was way off. I thought it was april 1 today. My bad! I apologize again and thanks for the advice. Seriously.. No shittin u. Thanks for ur smashing advice. I really appreciate it."
i'm very grateful to have friends such like the people mentioned above. i love my friends so much! i apologize for interrupting your day. :)