when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken, the beaten and the damned?
5:20 PM
Monday, July 25, 2005
lots and lots of stuff to do! this weekend sucks!
my song now... :))
She's blood, flesh and bone
No tucks or silicone
She's touch, smell, sight, taste and sound
But somehow I can't believe
That anything should happen
I know where I belong
And nothing's gonna happen
Yeah, yeah
'Cause she's so high...
High above me, she's so lovely
She's so high...
Like Cleopatra, Joan of Arc, or Aphrodite
She's so high...
High above me
First class and fancy free
She's high society
She's got the best of everything
What could a guy like me
Ever really offer?
She's perfect as she can be
Why should I even bother?
'Cause she's so high...
High above me, she's so lovely
She's so high...
Like Cleopatra, Joan of Arc, or Aphrodite
She's so high...
High above me
She comes to speak to me
I freeze immediately
'Cause what she says sounds so unreal
But somehow I can't believe
That anything should happen
I know where I belong
And nothing's gonna happen
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
'Cause she's so high...
High above me, she's so lovely
She's so high...
Like Cleopatra, Joan of Arc, or Aphrodite
She's so high...
High above me
my song at the start of the school year... :D
Breathe, trust, bless me and release,
Climb, hard or never be seen.
Closed off, rescue to breathe.
Just bless me.
Two sided time,
Your rebirth can't hurt,
Branch out behind, the pain.
Closure has come to me myself,
You will never belong to me.
Closure has come to me myself,
You will never belong to me.
Had to turn, lay down,
Your sting of disease.
Phase you out, should've seen this coming.
Go on confusing the soul,
Hold my breath 'til you rupture.
Three days aside,
Your rebirth can't hurt,
Branch out behind, pride.
Closure has come to me myself,
You will never belong to me.
Closure has come to me myself,
You will never belong to me.
Like a leach,I hold on as if we belonged,
To some precious pure dream.
Cast off, you've seen what's beneath,
Now fail me.
Forget closure,
Forget closure,
Forget closure,
Forget closure.
Closure has come to me myself,
You will never belong to me.
Closure has come to me myself,
You will never belong to me.
So breathe.
my song last summer... :)
There never seems to be
Because what i believe
A moment i'm not trying
To show them who i am
Why can't they understand
The things that they're denying?
They're denying.....
So what should i do
Just lay next to you
As though i'm unaffected
And who should i be
When they're judging me
As though i'm unaffected?
A chance they'd never give
To ever want to live
The life that i am made of
There's nothing left to prove
My heart's forever true
What is it they're afraid of?
Afraid of.....
So what should i do
Just lay next to you
As though i'm unaffected
And who should i be
When they're judging me
As though i'm unaffected?
Before they even say my face
The knew that i was not the same
And decided i was not the one for you
For you.....
So what should i do?
I'm not unaffected
And who should i be?
I'm not unaffected
So what should i do
Just lay next to you
As though i'm unaffected
And who should i be
When they're judging me
As though i'm unaffected?
Unaffected...
Unaffected...
Unaffected...
Unaffected...
when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken, the beaten and the damned?
7:15 PM
Sunday, July 24, 2005
Don't you wanna go for a ride
Just keep your hands inside
And make the most out of life
Now don't you take it for granted
Life is like a mean machine
It made a mess outta me
It left me caught between
Like an angry dream I was stranded
And I'm steady but I'm starting to shake
And I don't know how much more I can take
This is it now
Everybody get down
This is all I can take
This is how a heart breaks
You take a hit now you feel it break down
Make you stay wide awake
This is how a heart breaks
Don't you wanna go for a ride
Down to the other sideFeels so good you could cry
Now won't you do what I told you
I remember when you used to be shy
Yeah, once we were so fine
You and I why you gotta make it so hard on me
And I'm sorry but it's not a mistake
And I'm running but you're getting away
You're not the best thing that I knew
Never was never cared too much
For all this hanging around
It's just the same thing all the time
Never get what I want
Never get too close to the end of the line
You're just the same thing that I knew back before the time
When I was only for you
yikes...meanie... i'm so not bitter... right? roselle said that i was a bitter something! eww! i'm so bored... ooh! i'll share something! there's this girl... i don't exactly know her and i'm pretty sure she doesn't know me either but we were both kind of involved in a thing (i don't exactly know what its called so i'm calling it a thing). now its like, so awkward being in the same place as her.
anyway... moving on! i think i'm becoming such a dork... yesterday, i spent hours making 2 powerpoint things for THE. i'm not exactly lovin the teacher but i have to do it for the grade. i made the first one pooh themed because i kind of remembered maureen when i was deciding which cartoon character to use. then i filled the second powerpoint with pictures of disney princesses.
ooh! i have a new layout! lots and lots of pictures. instead of making our cl/fil project thingy, i made a new layout. imma work on our project later. anyway, 'twas hard to find a solo picture of maureen and danica. i had to cut bea off to get danica's solo pic. SORRY BEA! oh yeah! i got 5 pictures from you. i got maureen's picture from her first friendster account. doesn't she look so purrrtey? who knew that such a noisy child could look so innocent?:D i kid, i kid. find the theme of my new layout! hmm... actually, it doesn't really have a theme. i just used the word shake a lot. woah... roselle has a picture thingy too!? don't remember putting that. haha! where'd i get her picture? wow. i completed the eastwood people and my grade 6 buddy pictures! martina's so white!:D crap... i'm so bored!
when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken, the beaten and the damned?
6:15 PM
Monday, July 18, 2005
i shall make this a long entry! i'll make kwento everything! saturday was fun! i went to eastwood with maureen, monica, danica, bea and roselle!
i left the house at like, 2 pm. i told monica that i'd be at her house at 2 but i was late cause my dad suddenly watched wowowee cause he saw old people playing some game thing. haha! so anyway, i got to monica's house at about 2:20. when she got in the car, i fed her chicharon from bulacan which was kinda spicy. the whole car ride, we were talking about books and what happened during our play prod days. before going to bea's house, we stopped by national to buy supplies for my cl and english project. monica and i bought lots and lots of those little decoration thingies. then i bought art stuff like pretty paper, glitter glue and colored sand. monica bought the alchemist and a highlighter. when we were already satisfied with what we had, we(actually, my dad paid for my stuff) paid for the stuff na. after national, we went to xavierville to pick everyone up at bea's house. i thought they were all there already but when we got there, i found out that maureen was still in mc, roselle was on her way and danica wasn't even dressed yet. haha! they all got there after like, 20 minutes or something. we didn't leave right away 'cause maureen had to shampoo her hair and change her clothes and stuff.in the car, they were talking about weird stuff like birth control pills and stuff. i was kinda quiet cause my dad seemed kinda of pissed at me. we got to eastwood at about 4:30. we were supposed to watch herbie but when they saw that if only was already showing, they all turned to each other and said "if only na lang!". monica and i were kind of bummed 'cause we wanted to watch herbie. when we were buying tickets, i was still kind of sad and pissed 'cause of the whole thing with my dad so i bursted cause they took so much time in picking out seats. i'm such a biatch.:D we passed by power station first before going to my heaven, starbucks. i was so not sad or pissed anymore when i was given my beloved vanilla frap! we were just hanging out there and discussing stuff while waiting for our fraps when the guard approached us and gave roselle her wallet. she checked it and realized that the money inside it got stolen. we still don't know when or how it happened. she was so mad. she kept on saying "makakarma rin yung kumuha nun!". good thing her brother bear was there to lend her money. after the whole stolen wallet drama, we went to mcdo to eat. we talked about lots of stuff while eating. after hiding from maureen like weird little kiddos, we fled to the movie theater cause the movie was gonna start soon. if only was nice. it's really sad! i almost cried but the thought of monica freezing to death in the movie theater outweighed my tears.:) we decided to go to power station after the movie. we played lots and lots of games so we could get a prize. when we already had enough tickets, we picked out our prize. before claiming it, we spent our last credits on the karaoke thing. maureen picked a really jolog song which i think is entitled "dahil mahal kita". eventhough we didn't really know the song, we still kept on singing. we couldn't get over it. on our way to fazoli's we couldn't stop singing the only lines we knew which was "dahil mahal kita handa akong magparaya". lots of people were in fazoli's so we decided to eat somewhere else. someone suggested yellow cab. before goin to yellow cab, we stopped by the playground.
see-saw partners: bea and danica, me and roselle, monica and roselle.
the pepperoni and mushroom pizza was super yummy. during dinner, we were talking about some serious shit. maureen and roselle were goin to get picked up in mcdo so we all went there. after they left, we walked around for a few minutes then went to the cafe thingy where bea's parents were eating. bea brought everyone but me home. i came home with bea since i was gonna get picked up late. bea and i talked about lots of stuff. it was super fun. then she went online. we read her classmate's blog and checked out the ratings of if only. it was already late so we both fell asleep. i woke up when my phone was vibrating like hell. i woke bea up cause i was gonna leave already.
i was talking to my sister today about if only. i told her the story and stuff. she said that she didn't really agree with some parts of the story. she said something like "bakit kailangan mamatay muna yung girl for him to realize how much he loves her". that got me thinkin... why do you have to lose something or someone you love para marealize mo how good you have it? its weird 'no!
when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken, the beaten and the damned?
12:41 AM
Sunday, July 10, 2005
Summer: (worried) Cohen (Zach watches her) (Seth slowly opens his eyes) oh my god are you ok
Seth: yeah fine
Summer: (hits him hard) god!
Seth: ow
Summer: (yells) what the hell do you think your doing, this isn't a game (pushes him) Cohen you could've gotten hurt!
Seth: (rubs his arm) good thing I didn't
Summer: (upset) ...what'do you want from me Cohen
Seth: ...I just want you
Summer: (shakes her head) no you don't (Seth looks at her) you had me...you had me at Chrismukkah in a freakin wonder woman costume an you chose Anna! (Seth looks at her) you had me three months ago and you left!
Seth: and I wanna make that up to you
Summer: (upset) it has nothing'to do with me, it is about you and it is always about you (Seth looks at her) what you need and what you want you know it seems that you only want me when you cant have me....you like the chase and that's all (Seth looks away) so you know what...you can have it, i'm going home
(Summer walks back to the car, Zach watches then starts the car. Seth stands there sad. Zach and Summer drive off. Seth watches, in the background Ryan walks up to him)
when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken, the beaten and the damned?
5:55 PM
finally! a working computer! hurrah! i have lots and lots of stuff to write about! first of all i guess i have to clarify some stuff. last summer, i fought a lot of people. i'm sure martina and a lot of other people could attest to that. if i wrote something bad here, it doesn't automatically mean that it's about you. as you already probably know, not everything in this whole wide world revolves around you gorgeous. :) spread the love people! stop the bitchin' and start the lovin'!
anyway! my summer of discontent is over! this is the new era. its time to change my old stupid ways. :) i learned something new! its better for me not to comprehend stuff because life'll be less complicated that way! haha! i learned that from maureen! maureen's like the facts of life guru!
hmm... i am now i guess a proud member of III-9. my oh my! maureen's my classmate again! what have i done to deserve such a harsh punishment? haha! kidding! i'm blockmates na with al, ronnie, katre and mara who for some unknown reason is still pissed at me. my classmates are all nice. our homeroom, not so nice. my seat's location, horrendous. everyone i know is like, so far far away! we have a new cl teacher! sir pino said byebye to our batch na. sir giopre's hot! ooh!we're getting the result of sir bernz's killer math long test tomorrow! *gasp!* i really don't know what to write about but since its been almost a month na since my last entry, i feel like i'm required to write a long entry.
i watched hitch the other day! its super nice! will smith's character is so smart! speaking of watching stuff! super huge bummer! i didn't get to watch the sibol play thing cause i got all sick and stuff last week! people said that it was nice daw. super bad timing to get sick last week! i was absent for 2 days! i missed a lot of school stuff! i plan to be a super duper huge geek pa naman this year!
oh! mcdo's ceiling fell daw. wow! i wonder if anyone got hurt or something. hope not.
did you guys notice that i mentioned maureen's name a lot in this entry? haha!
when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken, the beaten and the damned?
4:30 PM
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