and we will send you reeling from decimated dreams

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it oepns up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."

Neil Gaiman

"How happy is the blameless vestal's lot! The world forgetting, by the world forgot. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd."

Alexander Pope

Monday, March 20, 2006

weh... sinong masyadong tamad para magproof-read? AKO! yipee! :)

shall i start the prom countdown? haha! naaaaaaah! crap. i miss everybody. i miss bam, boogs, ella and hmm... fine i miss lil jologitang al. :)) craaaap. geeky as it may seem, i actually miss wearing my uniform, waking up early, worrying about the things i forgot to do and i dunno... deciding whether to go down and buy food or not. i miss staying in school up to 5 just to bum around with my friends. i miss going around classrooms and seeing everyone. i miss monnie... i miss danica... and eventhough i see her a lot, i miss maurmaur too. bea the gullible... aww... i wanna see her na.

why can't love be enough? :))

my brother's phone was stolen and ccrap. my parents don't wanna buy him a new one so he got my old cellphone fixed. i read my messages in that phone and i swear to god... i almost died. :)) some were sweet and some were just hilarious. how pathetic of me. :))

wahahaha... la lang

it sucks when you really want something you can't have. sometimes, you try so hard to make something work but despite all that, its still doesn't work out. its like, you love someone and that certain someone loves you too but its like love isn't enough. why god... why? LOVE SHOULD BE ENOUGH, DAMN IT... i'm starting to think that love is like, some lost cause... that love isn't worth fighting for anymore. its like everyone i know who has ever fallen in love just ended up at hahahaheartache hotel.

i've always been into fairytales because i'd love to believe that somewhere out there, everyone has a soulmate. everyone has their princesses and prince charmings. i'd love to believe that no matter what happens love can surpass everything... no evil witches, evil sisters or evil stepmothers can stand in the way of love because love is above it all. one day i just woke up from a really really bad nightmare to realize that life is not a fairytale. my so-called prince might just be a big bad wolf pretending to be a prince. wahahaha! how stupid.

maybe love is really above everything... maybe thats why true and everlasting love can never be attained. or maybe we're all just meant to be alone.. i mean, we were born alone... its only natural that we die alone too. huwaw. labo.

i have a theory! love is just some money making myth. hoemayghad. i'll stop now. this is stupid. make my fairytale come true :))

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