Neil Gaiman
Alexander Pope
Saturday, February 18, 2006
morning:
this day is the lamest day ever... i've done nothing extremely exciting. i was supposed to go to the whole breakfast meeting thing but i woke up late so i kinda didn't want to go anymore cos i needed to go somewhere by 9:30. then i found out that erika wasn't coming cos she was grounded and monnie wasn't replying. that really made me not want to go. diane called and she sounded like she wasn't in the mood to go either so we just decided to ditch the breakfast thing.
afternoon:
i just watched 2 seasons of scrubs the whole afternoon. i swear, the writers of that show are geniuses... in between seasons, i went online and talked to a bunch of people.
evening:
while waiting for my brother to get here and bring us to the resort place for sister dear's byebye bash, i finished season 4 of scrubs then went online. that show really makes people think... i love it.
karen : unrequited love is the worst
erika : what?
karen : i mean it hurts when you love someone and that someone doesn't love you
erika : of course it hurts....
karen : yes it does...
i'm in love with the thought of being in love...
how insane is that? i mean, how could i be? i'm not even sure if i've ever been in love. :)
a long long time ago, i had this theory about people our age and love. i said that it was impossible for us to actually be in love because we were too young for that... i realize now that love is unpredictable... its one of those magnificent things that you just can't control. sometimes, it might drive you crazy to the point of wanting to kill yourself but when you come to think about it, it's also what drives you... it makes you do things... strange things that you never even thought you'd do... without love, this life wouldn't be worth living. okay so maybe the whole holding hands, kissykissy, flower and chocolate giving process makes me wanna puke but it would be nice to have someone who'd stick it out with you no matter what... someone who'd make you feel special... who'd accept you for who you are... and most importantly, someone who'd love you despite all your imperfections. :)
hearts don't have to shatter... they just have to stop feeling.
god... i should've weathered the storm. unrequited love is the worst..
my sister's finally leaving on tuesday. i never really thought that it would push through since her trip has been rescheduled lots of times already... it's gonna be weird not having her around anymore... :(